Hi there! You may or may not know this, but I'm going to high school in just a few weeks. Like any soon-to-be freshman (I'm assuming), I'm pretty terrified, but really excited at the same time about this huge change of environment. Today's post will kind of just be a ramble about high school, and a little something for you to get to know me a little bit better. At the end of this, if you'd like to maybe give me some tips in the comments if you've already been through high school, please do! I wouldn't be one to stop you.
To start off, I'm going to let you know a little bit about my situation. Basically, everyone in my eighth grade class is kind of going in small groups of about four people to certain high schools in the city, but I'm the only one from my class going to this specific high school. I don't really know many people at the high school I'm headed to, just a handful of people from my elementary school that I haven't spoken to since. So that's fear number 1; I don't really know anyone and it's kind of scary walking through the doors the first day and not seeing a friendly face, like anywhere.
Secondly, I'm a pretty shy person. In my defense, I've gotten a lot better at it over the past year, but I think that it was only because I started to get really comfortable in the school environment. Now that that's changed, I doubt that that's going to stay the same. My biggest problem is not speaking up and really getting myself out there, so that problem immediately transforms itself into another one of my fears, that I'll be completely alone on the first day of school and that I'll be sitting alone at lunch. But who knows, maybe in a few weeks, things will change and I'll get this sudden urge to be super talkative and friendly. You never know...
In addition to being shy and introverted, I have a terrible sense of direction. I get lost so easily and busing makes me really nervous. I'm not positive if I'm going to be busing to school everyday, but the thought of that makes me quite nervous, but excited at the same time because I like having that freedom. It also seems to me that my high school is quite big. I used to go to a middle school that used to be a high school, so I'm kind of used to the size, but I'm still pretty worried about getting lost and wandering around the halls like a lost puppy. Which, I guess I would be, in a way...
I'm also extremely scared for gym class. I am one of those girls who absolutely suck at anything that has to do with gym, so I'm really worried about that. Especially push-ups. Like, I can't even begin to talk about those. I'm just generally very worried about being that girl who is the absolute worst at everything in class because that would be humiliating.
In movies and books, they make high school seem like this huge emotional roller coaster-esque experience that you'll probably love to hate. I've been reading books based in that atmosphere for years and I'm really curious to see how high school will truly be like. The cliques and mean girls are an intimidating thought and being branded a loser is also another scary thought to me. I'm also really terrified of the teachers. I mean, I don't get in trouble very often at all (knock on wood, haha), but that's mostly because I'm too scared of getting in trouble that I don't actually do anything (bad). But just the thought of breaking one tiny rule and getting detention really freaks me out.
All in all, I'm pretty scared about starting my high school experience, but at the same time, I'm extremely curious to see how it's actually going to be like. Will it be as scary as I'm worried it will be? Or will it be the best (so far) time of my life? I really don't know how all of this is going to work out, but I'm excited to see how it's all going to unfold. Well, excited and terrified.
If you have any tips or advice for freaked out freshmen like me, please leave it in the form of a comment down below! I'd really appreciate it and would love to get some kind of discussion going in the comments, if that's even possible, haha.
Thank you for reading!